I’m unhappy with the way my life has been going. Well, unhappy isn’t the right word. Try really fucking miserable. I don’t know why, or how to change it. But I have to do something or else this feeling of apathy is going to over take me and ruin my life.
So in my effort to get my spending, my eating and well … my life under control. I’m cracking down on myself. I’m going to make myself a game plan and stick too it. I know that for the first 3 weeks it will be hard, but after that it should get easier. Well … hopefully.
Documenting everything, making sure I make wise decisions and just for lack of a better word, faking it until I make it. I’m betting it will help me, and if not then I’ll try something else. I KNOW I’m not happy, so why not try to fix it. The first step to fixing any problem, is realizing that hey you have a problem. And my dear, I’ve got a big one.
I know everyone is deathly interested in what my plan is. Let me tell you, that in my infinte need for orginzation (seriously I’m the girl who made a color coded spread sheet for gear upgrades for WoW when my main first hit 80) it involves, post it notes, color coded spread sheets and a planner. It’s kind of a 3 phase thing.
Phase 1 (which is seriously going to be the hardest phase):
[MONEY] Watch what I spend, and document where all money goes (Color coded spread sheet comes in here – Green for money gained, Red for money lost, Purple for the total)
[EATING] Get food on pay day to make lunches for the next 2 weeks. Eat out only 1 time a week (Wed).
[LIFE] Gym time at least 2 times a week. Tuesday & Thursday. Walk on the treadmill for at least 30 minutes. Document sleep schedule and try to fix it.
I’m not sure what the other 2 phases will entail. Other than pushing up the time I spend at the gym, and cracking down even farther on my money.
Things will work out. I have to have faith that they will, or else everything will be ruined and I’ll be unhappy for-ev-er.
I love World of Warcraft, holy hell do I love it. Because of WoW I’ve met so many people that I would not have otherwise met. I’ve met people who have inspired me, who I’ve fallen head over heals for, who’ve hurt me, and some who’ve become my best friends. And yet, WoW is starting to not bore me, but instead starting to bore everyone around me. I don’t want to find more friends, I like the group of friends I have. I don’t want to once again meet more people, and try to fit in. I’m actually happy where I am.
So instead, I’m looking for another MMORPG, one that the people in my life will try as well. They have started playing a DotA like game, League of Legends, but for some reason my computer refuses to run it. I get about 102 fps, and then suddenly … poof. GONE. Down to 2 fps, and those hopes I had of moving … GONE, like the wind.
So I’ve been trolling Onrpg.com, looking for something that will entertain me. Something that won’t cost a whole helluva lot of money, because as soon as I get my wisdom teeth out I’ll have none.
While, I doubt that any of these will diminish my love for WoW, I’m hoping that they prove to be an exciting distraction from it. At least something that I can spend time playing when life in Azeroth gets to be as stressful as my life out here in the real world.
Summer slump, or something worse I’m not sure. But my guild is now taking a break from raiding. This happened to me in the last guild I was in too, right around the same time as the last expansion. It’s burn out coupled with the frustration of not being more progressed. Everything is easily puggable now, so there’s no reason to stick with your guild.
That’s not fair though, because for most of my raiders it’s the copulation of burnout with real life just taking over. Does it make it any easier to swallow? No, not at all. Because now myself and a couple others who DO want to progress, and want to continue have to start all over again. Which means recruitment, and making sure these people are in for the long haul. And then what do I do with the new recruits once my old raiders come back?
Honestly, there isn’t a course that teaches you how to be a guild/raid leader. You just have to go with the flow, and hope in the end everyone knows that you aren’t making these choices to hurt them. I know that I personally try to be fair and give everyone a chance. And I honestly would hope that my raiders and guildies know that. I’m not a bitch. I’m not one to say it’s my way or the highway. I suppose maybe I need to do that in order to succeed. But it’s just not my style.
I’m learning to raid lead. And soon enough I would imagine I’m going to have to learn how to lead a guild as well. Maybe I’ll write a how to book on it. Someone out there might appreciate it… maybe.
Until then, I’m spamming my recruit macro in trade.
Raiders of Light is currently looking for tanks and range dps to fill out our raiding core. We’re 11/12 in ICC 10. Our raid nights are Wed/Thurs/Sun from 7pm til 10pm server. PST for more info.
This weekend has been mad crazy. Really no time to play any WoW or even play the beta. Just busy busy busy. I did enter the Spectral Safari that I was talking about last update. It was a lot of fun and I learned A LOT about card play and attitude and such. Past Times was a great place, I’ve never been in a place like that before so it was cool to be there and just look around. There were 30 people, it was … really crowded. Especially because there were 2 other card game things going on. Some Magic thing and then Yu-Gi-Oh. Neither of which I play, or think I’m going to play.
Anyway, paid my 20$ entry fee and ended up with a red mage deck. I was excited because I had watched Ben play a mage deck before, so I figured that I could at least mimic some of his moves. The first couple of rounds I did so horrible. The third round was closer, and I won the fourth round. I was so proud of myself! I had actually beat someone. The win really boosted my confidence in myself, so for round five and six, I also managed to win. I went into round seven confident. But got my ass handed to me. I learned so much and met some new people. Which for me was a big thing. I was super proud of myself for that. I’m also proud of myself for placing 22nd out of 30. Not nearly as good as I could have done, but for my first time I’ll take it.
I was going to buy another class starter deck, but didn’t because they didn’t have the one I wanted. I’ll have to check the card place around here and see if they have one next week. I also found out that they’re going to be doing battlegrounds after GenCon at Past Times on Sundays. So I think I’ll make it a goal to hit at least 2 a month. Just to get better. I want to take this kinda seriously, but it’s kinda expensive to start. This class starter really helped though. Because it gave me a good boost of cards and I’ll be able to make legal decks by using them.
Switching gears from the card game to the beta. I’m going to start running new classes/race combos up to level 10, and documenting it. I’ll also work on leveling Tarr and just looking for bugs. It’ll give me some focus, and something to kind of look forward too.
My birthday is in 3 days. I’m going to be 24. Someone should buy me a spectral tiger ;P Since I didn’t win it today at the Safari.
Things change, and that’s part of life. But it doesn’t make things any easier. It’s like … you get used to how things are and then things change. It’s up to the person to either accept it or to not deal with it. My normal routine is to just play ostrich and pretend that things are okay and not changing. But that always comes back to bite me in the ass later on. I’ve been working on it though, it’s not always easy, but at least I’m making the effort. I’m making an effort in a lot of areas in my life. That’s part of the reason as to why I started writing in this.
So while the beta was downloading last night, I was playing around on Steam and downloaded the demo for Torchlight, that shit is so fun. OMFG I want it. I need to save money though so it’s gonna have to wait a couple of weeks. That’s okay though, the things I’m saving for are a little bit more important than a video game.
Talked to a friend of mine today from a long time ago. Him and I have gone through our ups and downs. We were hella close for like 2 years, had a falling out and then got really close again. When we weren’t talking it was like a part of me was missing. It hurt so fucking bad, I’m glad that we fixed it. He recently just welcomed a new addition into his little family, and I’m so happy for him. I know he’ll be an amazing father. I’m currently saving up to head out and visit him for a couple of days. It’ll be good times.
I wish that it was easy with all my friends as it was with him. It would make my life so much easier. Maybe I’m over reacting or something, I don’t feel like I am though. I just … IDK. It’s whatever.
I got some screenies from the beta. Nothing much just shit that looked important to me. So I’ll toss them in at the end of this post and then move myself off to bed.
DUN DUN DUN!
How much XP you’ll need to level from 80 to 81
The new character tab
The new profession tab. I love the way this looks. It looks so freaking awesome.
The new spell book feature. It seriously now tells you what level you get spells and shit at. And like when you ding you get this big annoying flash across your screen that says something like “You’ve reached LEVEL XX” and then when you’ve got a skill that’s ready to be learned it once again flashes across your screen and tells you that you can go learn it. So weird.
The first couple of quest rewards I came across, looks like it might be the whole regular WoW to BC thing again where we’re replacing gear right off the bat.
The map for Mt Hyjal
Then it was time for me to head to Stormwind!
Flying over it. Look at all those rooftops ;P
There is actually water in the fountain now!
The AH looks like an actual auction house. All of the graphics look so much cleaner now and just … amazing.
The front gates, I kind of got teary over this.
The park, it was seeing this that I just lost it. I can’t believe I actually started to cry. It was like seeing my house in shambles or something.
The vine fields outside of Northsire Abby. The Defias guys there turned into Black Rock Orcs.
YAY! Dailys in SW & they offer skill points. Hello easy leveling of shitty professions (Yes fishing I’m looking at you!)
By now I was tired of seeing all the destruction so I decided to play around with a Worgen. Currently female Worgen cannot be created. So I went ahead and rolled a quick male Worgen hunter. It’s so weird seeing level 1 hunters with pets right off. But Worgens get English Bulldogs for their pets so I had to create one! That’s just so awesome. Plus since my alt is a hunter, I was curious as to how the energy thing was going to work out. It wasn’t too bad, but at low level oh holy hell I was seriously blowing shit away.
Character creation screen (yes Fredrico is his name haha)
What he looked like in game, no where near as handsome as before 😡
The whole area was so adlfjaldsj AMAZING looking. The details were awesome, and just looked so realistic. I felt the same way with WotLK but this is like times 1 billion or something. I didn’t get much more than those screen shots though. I did try to learn archeology , but couldn’t learn it yet. I’m not sure if I went to the wrong spot or what not. However, the trainer is Harrison Jones and he gives a speech very similar to one of the ones Indiana Jones gives in the movies. I laughed for like 10 minutes straight. And then once he calls his class, one of the students blows him a kiss. Which just creeped me out a little bit.
Anyway, more beta funsies later. I’m going to go finish the book I’m reading and get some sleep.
Today’s Wednesday. Wednesday’s are fairly predictable days for me. I’m usually off of work. Have PNG and then go to The Department with Andrea for dinner. Then settle in to lead my 10 man raid.
Today was no exception except for the fact that before dinner I went over to Ben’s to learn how to play WoW: TCG (World of Warcraft Trading Card Game), it wasn’t too bad. I’ve gotten the feeling of the game down a bit, now to just tighten it up a bit more before I hit up the tournament on the 25th. I’m not expecting to place 1st or anything, hell I’m not even expecting to make it through 1 round, but I’m excited to be trying it out. It’s a step in the right direction for me.
I also filled out my FAFSA form today. I’m going to go back to school. I’m nervous about it, but I really need to do it. For myself more than anything else. I should be finding out the information on that soon. *crosses fingers* I can’t wait.
Anyway, so I came home and started up the 10 man, well the raid had already started thanks to my awesome guild. I just kinda had to come in and do my thing. We had to call it early because someone had to go, whatever it happens. I happen to then at that time check my phone and I see that I’ve got this email:
Since there’s been lot of fake emails going out and such I decided to double check it with my account. And low and behold there in my account info was:
I seriously thought I was going to die. I started dancing around my house, screaming and jumping. So excited. The biggest thing for me with Cata was that I didn’t want it to be spoiled for me. I wanted to see everything first hand myself, so now I get to spoil it for myself! I’m seriously so excited. I’m planning on leveling Tarrina a little bit, but ultimately I want to play around with the new classes. Goblins & Worgen and omfg Troll druids yes please!
So for awhile most of my blog will contain beta stuff. I’ll try not to spoil too much, and each post will be labeled a beta post so that people can just scroll right by if they’re not interested. Anyway, that’s pretty much all that’s going on right now. I’m currently installing the game, and it’s taking for-ev-er … well that or maybe I’m just impatient.
Two final pictures for tonight:
I am so excited 😀 OMFG I can’t wait!
If there is anything anyone wants to know, or screen caps anyone wants me to grab. Let me know 🙂 I’m more than willing to take some for you. All you gotta do is ask!
EDIT: I just realized that I got the beta opt in for my other account. The one without any 80’s on it 😦 This means I’ll mainly be focusing on the low level starting zones and such. Oh well. GO GO troll druid, Goblin mage and Worgen what the flux ever, ooh and a holy cow ;P Ret bull gives you wings. LOL Yeah.
EDIT 2: I”m dumb and didn’t see that it flagged for my whole bnet account, not just 1 account on the bnet. So yay transferring Tarr over!